I've been tagged

Here are The Rules: Go to your photo folders, click on the 4th one. Choose the 4th photo. Tag 4 people.



Unfortunately I don't have 4 people to tag... Grrrr

About Damn TIME!

I know its been a week or so since my last post! BOO ON ME!
Its been a pretty good week... Did a little exchanging of computers and a whole lot of nothing. ^_^ I did trade my Dell Laptop XPS for a custom built computer that runs a WHOLE lot better than my other desktop. YAY! Now I can actually play my games like World of Warcraft aka WoW. hehe

I did go to eagles on Sat. night with Mike, Jared, Joey, Carie and me Mum. It was alright, as I expected. I am not a big fan of going to a hee haw place to sing Karaoke. There was just too much Country and not enough rock and roll. LOL

Also got to hang out with my really good friend Cory at Sonic! YAY I totally LOVE the Mozzarella sticks there too. Its my dark secret, well was, now the entire world knows. LOL
Sweet Picture is with Ash and those FAB sunglasses of hers. ^_^

Oh don't know if I mentioned my pals from SLC coming down for a few days sometime ago... That was a blast! We went to Las Vegas and hung out for a day and night. Went to the Coke Factory and had the world coke sampler thing. Most were SO good, but there is this one... God can't remember the name of it, but yeah it tasted SO bad. I called it Guenevere but I think it is Beverly.

Then we came back to S Town and went to the colors of one party over to Lisa's house. We had so much fun! Here are a few of the people from the party... Some locally sucked in people and my boys from SLC are in there someplace too. There was so much liquor there and everyone was getting all crunk. I Heart everyone there... WELL Almost everyone there... Will NOT mention names. HAHAHA I was so sad when my SLC boys had to go back home. SIGH. Oh well next time they come down we'll party again.

So lets see... Hmmmm I think that is about everything for right now that I can think of. I'll probably have something come up in the middle of the night and be all like... OMG I totally forgot about that!

Anywho.. G'night for now

Trying to get back on track

This week has been hella crazy! My boys from Salt Lake City came down to visit for a few days and they just left a day ago. I'm already missing them. ^_^
This is going to be a short one right now until I get back and will put up a full blog about the crazy adventures.

Toodles for now

Website of the Week

I will make this a short and sweet post tonight because I am really tired and just want to get my cold ass into a warm bed... LOL

So this week is a website that I've been following a long time now and I just love pictures of Boys!

This is Josh's Lot....

Josh's Lot

enjoy!

Blah Blah Blog

holy wow batman! Today was colder than a witches tittie in an iron bra. There was so much wind today as well, holy cow, thought I was going to get blown.... away. ^_^

So today was pretty uneventful and such. Mostly stayed in the Hacienda and did some repairs on little things around the house. Our front door wasn't able to close correctly so I needed to adjust the striker plates and tighten up the hinges, but in the end I had to switch out the lock assembly. Was kind of fun and kept me busy most of the day and was a nice change.

Hmmm lets see what else happened this past week or so.

I don't think I've mentioned at all about me partner in here. WOW I'm such a terrible host. His name is Vince and we've been together for about 5 months, with a small separation not long ago. We can go into that a little later, only the basics for right this moment. ^_^
Yes that is him in the picture above... or the right... or left... wherever I happened to place it in my sleep typing.

I must admit that it is pretty nice to be able to finally blog from my laptop, IN BED! hahaha Well it IS almost 3 A.M. here and I am pretty much tired from taking my Valerian Root and Melatonin sleeping regiment about an hour ago.

But yes... I got a little off track there. I was talking about Vince and myself.
So as sad as this sounds I really don't remember the exact date we got together... I know I AM TERRIBLE! I do know that it was late April roughly. Hmmmm I really should have saved the first myspace messages and such. LMAO
Well in our relationship it has been kind of rough with not seeing each other and also having some rocky places. I won't go into that in detail, so you've got what I'm going to tell you on that.
Like I said before we were recently separated for about 2 weeks and then got back together. This is was to be an eye opener and was needed to open eyes up as to how fragile relationships can be.
Ok I think that is enough on the subject there... I might just make him blush by talking about him so damn much. LOL

Now time to saw how much I LOVE watching Tyler Oakley! My friend mike tried to get to into watching the 5 awesome gays on youtube... Yeah not so much there BUT I found this Boy really entertaining and handsome. He is so funny and quirky! here's one of his video's below. Also good timing since National Coming Out day was on the 11th. WooT



So there you have it... I have finally finished a blog ON TIME and not after the day has come to an end. Now I can go about my "ever so busy" day and not have to rush home to finish the blog that I started on and forgot... Hooray!

Photo of the Week

So yes, until I can find some good people with photo's that I know and read my blog I am going to keep putting up some of my photo's.

This one comes from Lake Powell near Bullfrog, Utah. If you are not familiar with that area, Bullfrog is almost the northern most area of Lake Powell you can travel to next to Hite Marina an hour and a half away.

The area is so beautiful and I love to go there, but no a days it is too far to travel. 9 Hours from where I live now.

Fanatical Friday Blog

So here is the Fanatical Friday Blog of the Week! Only with a small catch... I'm doing this on Sat. HAHAHAHA Got You!

So today I was wanting to keep this a little serious and give my viewers a chance to rant and rave about what is happening in our wonderful world of Politics.

What I would like is to have you express you opinions on the current status of economics and what you think might be a good way to turn things around.

As with the above I'd also like to hear about your thoughts on the Presidential Nominees. Obama VS McCain.

READY.....
SET....
GO!

Website of the Week

OK OK OK
So I have been slacking this week. Oops
I don't know where my head has been so I will combine the Website of the Week and my regular blog together into one blog. K

First the Website of the Week!
This is going out as a holla out to my good friend Mike and all the hard work he does at his job. He works at a company called OMNI business solutions here in St. George, Utah and does what they call SEO. What this is, is Search Engine Optimization. This helps peoples websites get out into the wide wonderful world of the Internet so they might have a standing chance at becoming something.

Well this website is a well done site done just for the dogs. There is almost everything you need to know about puppies to dogs and everything in between. He has gone through and put a nice selection of dog breeds together and gives the viewers all kinds of information about particular breeds of these 4 legged companions.

Now for the all awaited link to the site....
Just 4 The Dogs

My Totally Randomness

So here it is... first things first... I had a request to post the picture of me and my red boa from Southern Utah Pride...

Kind of snazzy don't ya think? LOL
Anywho, this post is going to a tad short tonight. I do have to rise and shine early tomorrow to go to court with my friend Mike. Don't worry, it is not something he did or didn't do. This will have to be a story for another time. ^_^

Tomorrow will be COLD going up to Cedar City though, OMG it's supposed to be like 45 or something like that! Yeah, and I think we are taking his Jeep with the top OFF! I'm going to be dressing like a freaking Eskimo from Northern Exposure!

HAHAHA Well Kiddo's That is my little blurb for the night and I hope to catch back up for more later in the day. I most likely will cuz I plan on taking my camera with me an maybe "shooting" some hotties will up near SUU!!!! WOOT!!

Peace

Photo of the Week... Monday

Today's Photo of the Week is another photo I took here in Southern Utah's Dixie near St. George, Utah 84770

This is one of my best friends Sierra... She is so wonderful!

A little about me on Fantastic Friday!

I thought each friday I'd put up a little something about myself or about someone I know just for a change. so here we go!
I got this little thing from my friend Carie... HOLLA GIRL!

4 random things about my husband:
Well I am not married, nor can I legally be married in almost every state... This is going to skipped

4 Random things about my Brother

*He was in a motorcycle accident
*He is only my half brother
*He {assed away Christmas last year
*He was also named the homeless Jesus

4 movies that I would/could watch more than once:
*Green Mile
*SuperBad
*Matrix
*Star Wars

4 tv shows I watch:
*Bones
*Tabatha's Salon Takeover
*How its Made
*Heroes

4 places that I have been:

*California
*New York
*Colorado
*New Mexico

4 people who email me regularly:
*Chris
*Grandma
*Spam
*Job searchs

4 favorite foods:
*Ham/Bacon
*Cheesecake
*Drunken noodles!
*Pasta

4 places I would like to visit:
*New Zealand
*Australia
*Hawaii
*Europe

4 things I am looking forward to in the coming year:
*My Birthday!
*Possibly getting into Paul Mitchell Hair School
*Cooler Weather
*Moving into my own place

4 people I have tagged:
*Carie
*Chris
*Ian
*Ely

Photo of the Week

Another Post I will be doing is the Photo of the Week.
Of course I will be starting this off with one of my first photographs I took with a good friend of mine when she was pregnant some time ago.

Thanks Dani!

Website of the Week!

Ok here it is...Once a week I'll be doing a Website of the Day. This will be a random site that I think is really cool or can benefit YOU somehow in some way. ^_^

This site is called LivePlasma

What is it you ask. Well in short the site can suggest new movies/bands after you've typed in your favorite actor/actress, movie title, band, etc. New movies will be expanded with the main actors or actresses or even director. This is a great way to maybe find a movie that you didn't know about. YAY RIGHT!? I thought so.

Here is a brief description that someone else has written about the site....
QUOTE
"Live Plasma is not the first site of its kind but it is the best site of its kind (If you ask me…which you didn't). You enter a movie, actor, director, musician, etc; and Live Plasma will create a web of related media for you to browse through. This is a very cool way to discover new movies and music based on what you already know."

And Here is the LINK!!!!

LIVEPLASMA.COM

OMG Its been a while

Holy Freaking Bananas Batman! Its been a long time since I have updated my blog here... Oopsie
Its not that I have any excuse or anything. Since I am jobless and not doing anything else but sitting on my ass all day long. WOW!

This last weekend was Pride up in Springdale Utah. It was absolutely Fabulous! I wish I would've taken my camera and taken lots of pictures but I didn't. Go figure. Especially with all the cute good looking boys that were there.. YUMMY... WOOF!
There was quite a bit of entertainment and I saw several people there that I haven't seen in a while. This one girl came up to me on Fri night and was like I totally know you from somewhere... You worked at Sears right? I was like yeah... She was from Pretzel Time in the Mall and recognized me there... RUNS AND HIDES! LMAO I really didn't go there much... well almost every day that I worked... HAHA
I also seen my old HR manager from Allconnect, Jeff I believe is his name... HOT! I wanted to talk with him more before we all took off, but didn't. I am too chicken shit sometimes. All in All it was a great weekend.

Another exciting deal. I was with someone for almost 5 months. Then I realized that things were not working out between us. We'd only seen each other maybe 5-6 times in that time frame. Every time I wanted to get together or we made plans to do something, something always came up. I came to expect that from him. I couldn't keep going on like that. We had even made plans to move in together and go to Oregon, but that fell through. I know some was my fault, for only working a seasonal job and leaving ZNHA mid august. Things would always just happen to come up. Oh well Live and Learn.

Lets see... Oh my friend Carie is the one that told me I needed to get back into the blogging again... Good Job Carie, I need a good kick in the ass sometimes. HEHEHE

Well that is about it for tonight.... I will try to post as often as I can. Maybe even do some things a little different instead of just blabbing about my boring ol life. ^_^

Just another copy....

So I sit here on my computer contemplating what could be and what has been. Yet my mind wonders with every thought of you. Like a magic carpet ride where the destination is unknown. Soaring high above in the clouds with my feet firmly planted on the ground. The mind and body are detached. I know what I want and am not afraid to make the step towards that direction. Yet I sit here and let the events slowly unfold before me. Take it slow. Again I know what I want, but does he agree? So self conscience about the feelings of others and what they will think. There's a special place deep inside of me yearning to be filled and is slowly filling up. Can it possibly be completely filled, god I would hope so.

Multipost Day!

I almost forgot to mention in all my errand running and shanagins today that there is a Pride Event coming up on June 6th and 7th in the Downtown section by the Library.

also coming up is the Southern Utah Pride near Zion National Park! YAY! I am so excited for this one... since this happens only 15 minutes from where I live. ^_^

Yes I designs both of those too... heheh not to toot my own horn

Early writings of Jason

Beautiful

Jason Wallace

Flowing water, Rapid
Blowing wind, gentle
Flowers - swaying, scented
Delicate clouds, soft
Main street asphalt, Rough
Steel structure, smooth
Snow capped mountains, breathtaking
mirrored lake, awe-inspiring
The boy I love, Gorgeous
Me, beautiful

Boy
Jason Wallace

Island in the desert, on oasis of life
the boy I see so innocent and eager
the man I love is so close yet so far away
Reach out and touch him -
my arms extend to eternity
The boy I dream of is perfect in every way
Eyes that my soul can never find a way out
Hair like the spiked rays o the sun
A body that will hold me and make me feel secure
yet hands so gentle
Caring and sweet, yet strong against adversity
for diversity -
This is the man I love -
Right next to me.


Dew

Jason Wallace

The morning has come, its cold and icy
The cold sends chills straight to my bones
Beep, Beep, Beep.
The alarm squeals through the dark
Wakes me from a fabulous dream.
Groggy, limp, not thinking about the day ahead
Laying on the floor, stretch out, limbering up
Jump in the shower; Wet, hot, steamy
Starting to comprehend the day - thinking
not long now and I face the day - head on
trying to dress myself - one leg at a time
my ride shows up - “Damn I’m late”
Grab a quick bite - “Damn still cold”
I hate this morning, will it change?
Hopefully not, it is going to be a great day!


God . . .

Jason Wallace

Dear God - are you even there?
Tell me what I am supposed to do
I do one thing, life goes the other way
Just don’t want to play catch up anymore.
Do you even exist?
Experiences tell me no, I haven’t lost faith - yet
Try to do good for everyone
Turn around and get shit on
This is where Zig never meets Zag
What is there to life?
I don’t know anymore -
I’m sick of being alone in life
nothing to hold onto
let it all go? - - - No!
There’s got to be something more
Dear God, if your there -
Hear my plea!
Don’t leave me stranded
Footprints in the sand - mine not His
Are walking in this wonderful place
Alone -



Life as a Cat
For my best friend Rachel

Jason Wallace

Dip your paws into a bowl of water
Smooth down the fur on your face
Close your eyes -
Stretch out on your side
Gather the warm rays of sunlight,
streaming through the enormous living room windows
Sprawl out on something comfortable
Noises - coming from the other room
Eyes wide open -
Ears perched -
Stealthily move towards the wall
Peek around the corner -
Nothing is there, no one is home
Noises again! Behind the table
Quietly spring atop the table
Listen intently -
Peer over the edge, unnoticed
Pounce! Claws extended, rolling around
It’s play time because no one is home!



Movement

Jason Wallace

Flying high in the sky at morning break
The sun peers over the Snowcapped Mountains
A gentle breeze spawns from the South
Dip and dive through the air
Take me away on the breeze
Don’t care where -
The freedom to fly where ever I choose
Flocks awake to join the ballet in the sky
Weave left
Jut downwards
Climb as high as you can, break right
Spiral downward towards the earth
The flock is following - streaks above
Small fields in the distance
Find a spot before all is lost
Spread open my wings, feet out stretched
Grab hold of a nearby branch
The Flock is following - a blanket settling
The sun sets across the field
All is calm, for we do this again tomorrow.




Saturday

Jason Wallace

The boy of my dreams came to me last night
Whispered softly into my ear
The night was late -
Was a nice party for a change.
Chaos amid the encounters happening elsewhere
My mind was adrift out in the universe
Drifting silently -
Something brought me back to reality
fingers intertwining with mine
and arm sliding across the waist -
Am I dreaming?
Look down to see if it was in my mind
The sweetest smile looking back at me
Other arm slides behind the back -
A kiss on the cheek
Sexy -
Slide of hand, Twist of fate
We end up together for the rest of the night.



Time

Jason Wallace

Time is a free flowing inconceivable part of my mind
How fast is goes -
Time can pass by so fast in a blink of an eye
Blink - you’ll miss something
Time can creep along at a snails pace
Seems it will never end
Looking back twenty three years ago
new life was conceived
Looking forward ten years from now
Too far ahead to comprehend
Where am I now? Where should I be?
Don’t really know, Don’t really care.
Blink - - what have I missed?
Close your eyes and dream
Just let time slip away.




Untitled

Jason Wallace

Eight ball corner pocket - Don’t screw up
Red, Blue, Purple, yellow, green, and orange
Five fingers entwined and addicted to mine
four arms entangled together
3 wishes granted -
two of a kind
Lovers - - together forever

Photo's With Sierra

Just going to put up a few pictures of the last outing with my friend Sierra and myself. She wanted to get some new shots for her myspace and me being the way I am, told her HELL YA! ^_^

Just to keep this shorter and not forever long, I will post my favorites up and then post the link to the album on PhotoBucket.Com

Please enjoy and if you like them, share your love in a comment.

Thank you,
Jason

Depression

Are we feeling recharged and energized today? Yes and No. The most common answer thats in definitive. Yes you want to go out and do something active, but you tell yourself that you need another hours rest or a nap. You talk yourself out of doing anything active and yet you just sit around and be lazy. Sound Familiar?

Today I am just writing some various thoughts come to my head and we will be jumping around all over the place. This should make this post somewhat exciting over the rest. ^_^

As described in my first paragraph, I have suffered through this stage many times and have come to the conclusion for the answer. Depression. Well What is Depression? Basically a chemical imbalance in your body and/or brain. Depression can be very destructive for your well being and also people around you. Not only does it affect you, but also people that care about you.

There are times when you might think the world and everyone in it is against you. You become irritated, judgmental, mean, angry, more tired than usual and have no energy. Depression is overpowering at times and can seem your in a hole that you can't get out of. Don't fear, there is help!

There are many ways that you can seek help and assistance with combating depression. The first, which has always been my life saver, is friends and family. They give you support and direction plus also the love that you so desperately need in a time like these. The second is a Therapist. I've only experienced a small portion with one, but what I've experienced has been alright. As weird as this may come across, sometimes putting things out before a stranger can take a load off your back.
The third is Medications. Personally I've traveled this path with high expectations and not good results. If this is the path you seek then I HIGHLY recommend talking with you doctor and asking LOTS of questions. The drugs can be wonderful and make the world seem right, but inside your body and mind, they are reeking havoc. On so many of the med's that are out there for depression I keep finding a common denominator for them, or a side effect if you will. "Taking this Perscription may cause more depression or you to have strong thoughts of suicide." I'm sorry if that is a side effect, i'd rather deal with this on my own with out drugs to amplify those thoughts!

So in conclusion on this blog today. This was mostly for depression, which I've recently just came out of and hope to not get back into.

If you have any thoughts/suggestions or questions. Please do not hesitate to ask for help from wherever you can find it.

Its Been A While

Wow, almost one long year since I have last even logged into my companion, my faithful listener, My confidant.
I must say in the past year many things have happened, but for the sake of putting everything into just one blog, I plan on separating it out an making a mini series. I will say for right now, that I am tired and it is very late. I will Blog tomorrow night. I just needed to put something in here to remind myself that I still existed and so did this blog. ^_^

Goodnight for now.