Thursday, December 14, 2006

Well since I have time to blog lots tonight

Today is my birthday, that is why I put up my Natal Astrology chart tonight. I wanted to find out everything I could about myself with this chart. I was surprised at how accurately I was depicted on there. ^_^
I don't really feel older today, but in retrospect I do. This probably doesn't make sense to most people. Another year has gone by and I have been thinking about things I have done this last year that 1. has happened to me 2. I wanted to happen 3. What I did to make myself better.

Lets start by what has happened:
The Beginning of the year was pretty good, I had a pretty good job in Springdale, Utah working as a night auditor at a nice hotel. I was pretty much living the good life with my new car and a nice place to live in Hurricane, which is about 30 min. away. Then Dustin walked into my life and everything changed almost in the blink of an eye. We met down here in Hurricane and went on one date, then he told me that he was moving to Ogden, UT the next day. I had fallen head over heels for him. I wanted to be with him. So I gave up my job and packed most of my things and moved up there the next week. This was in April. Within a couple of months I had realized I made a mistake with going up north. He is a great guy, but just not the type for me. I had broken up with him and came back home in June.
Within the next few months I had become and emotional wreck and fell into a very deep depression that I couldn't have gotten out of without the help of my best friends here now. Thank you Dani, Clayton, and Jaden. With out them I think things would have become so much worse than what they were. Eventually I crawled out of the hole I fell into and started to make things better for myself. At this time is when I tried to make something happen (relationship wise) with one of my best friends. Of course that didn't work out and now we are best friends, but once again I slumped into the darkness. this time is was to last for almost 6 months.
During this time i couldn't hold a job down and I had pushed all my friends and family away. To be honest I do not remember much what happened during this time and still, even now, is a blur to me. I do remember that I lost my new car, no not lost, didn't pay the payments and it got repo'd.
I did eventually get a few jobs and tried to pick my pieces back up and now that I write this, everything is looking great again. I have a job, going to be getting another car and maybe down the road find me a great guy. The last isn't a necessity right now though. HEHE
Early in the year, well Dec. 22 2005 my grandfather, Calvin Wallace, passed on. God bless him in the life he is living now. I love you and miss you dearly. R.I.P.

Things I wanted to happen:
I wanted to get back into college for my computer graphics and web design. That didn't happen because of the financial problems I had made for myself.
To be honest, I really didn't have any plans for myself during this last year. The main thing was to slap myself into reality and get with the program. That I have done! I guess then I have done exactly what I needed to do.

I have a great feeling this next year is going to be great and just wonderful. I am really looking forward to moving on and making the Jason I know better and more improved... ONLY 199.95.... HAHA just kidding...just so happened an advertisement just came on the BooB Tube. LOL

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