Valentine's Day Massacre

You know something, I don't really know what it is that I just happen to do with boys. The only thing I know for sure is that they are stupid and asses!
Once again I find myself alone for Valentine's Day, this shouldn't come to any suprise to me though, but it does. Honestly I DID have a valentine up till about a week or so ago, and then he just happens to fall of the face of the earth. No contact what so ever, No phone call, doesn't work where he used to, and he moved.
I think that I really am supposed to be alone in the journey we call life. There is not going to be much complaining, except the every now an again "Why Me?"

I really wish that I can find that someone out there so I can stop looking. I am so tired of being alone and not able to share things with someone that I love. Maybe I just yearn for love too much, I don't know. I only want something I can't have I guess... A guy that will love me for me, and that I can reciprocate the love right back. I have been through too many relationships where everything is one sided, which makes things even harder to work on. I guess though, that maybe something is better than nothing...No its not... I will not settle again, I made that mistake one too many times and will not repeat this.
I had something for the last two months, then that was raped and taken from me in the blink of an eye. I was only waiting for Valentine's to tell him exactly what I wanted to tell him. I wanted us to just get to know one another on a deeper level, and emotional level. I forgot that isn't what guys want around here. DAMN YOU!!